I don’t feel, you Understand me You can’t bear To see me
You try to rescue me But I’ve been rescued From living a life That’s ordinary
I see in colours You dream of I live in filters You attempt to reach
I do not mean to say You are ordinary You can’t see What I see You were never ordinary To me
You like me When I’m like you You find it hard to When I’m let loose You’d rather I be like you too
Why can’t I see What I’m throwing behind A chance at the regular A seat at the table You made with your hands And worked all your life on
How dare I usurp it - Your royal throne With mere words from my mouth My every no a rebellion Against your decree to comply My every hesitation an affirmation That I see through the lies
You tell yourself And try to sell to me too I don’t buy it I know you want me to
I’m afraid I can’t I wasn’t made to I’d break if I tried to And believe me I’ve tried The proof is the degree I’ve broken to God knows I’ve tried To be just like you To be liked by you God knows I’ve tried And been denied
But I want to walk this Perilous path before me And not be afraid Of the highs and lows that approach me It’s a tall demand To let them flow through me Life asks me to be a river That flows free
I want to hold on To one branch or the other A lover or mother A friend or father
I eventually Let go
I can’t you see I have to be free It’s against my nature To be tied to a decree However sweet or spicy You make it out to be
I bend and I break And I break what no longer serves me I move through the haze I make love to the pain I’m not regular And that’s okay I must be okay With me
